Reading!

I am into reading mode these days..Trying my hand again on Osho's philosophy..rather rebellious one..as he calls it and i think he is right..Evokes me at times..and parallely reading Mahatma Gandhi's "Experiments with truth". The ideas are exactly opposite..may be i understood the meaning of 180 degree turn today only. One wants you to rejoice to the fullest, feast, make merry, be one with yourself, teaches you new ways of indulging in sex and another wants you to fast and practice celibacy! SO..where i am i heading..am i going to internalize on of these or stay confused..leading nowhere.